I do not know why Gladia get upset with Alakath. He is
important man here, so he cannot be here all the time to tend to us. This why
we stay with Johan. He keep us as safe as he can plus help teach me this
writing.
He say this is like our kronnos liibriuu. “Clan
history” in this tongue. Only it is just my story, not my whole people’s. He,
and Alakath, call it a “journal”. Either way, it is to tell my thoughts and my
story so others long time from now may know how things are today.
I still worry about Amaka, but Alakath keeps saying she is
safe. I hope to see her. I want her back with us, and I will do what it takes
for that to be. She not safe there. She only safe with us.
So today, while helping him clean his home, I talk to Johan
about this. He say I should trust Alakath, like I don’t! I tell him I do, but I
do not believe Amaka is safe. Johan say that Alakath sees “big picture”, and
knows things that I cannot know.
I ask how Alakath know these things. Johan say that Alakath
been here a long time and know how everything operates. This knowledge is why
he want to send me and Amaka to another city. One Gladia from, called Drayden’s
Burrow. One Johan traded with when the clan was still alive.
Johan ask me at one point today if I wanted to rebuild clan.
I tell him I do, but I need suitable kruum. I tell him if he were not
old, I would let him be new kruum, but he too old. He die before the
first born could complete the kruumii leticii, if he not too old to
produce offspring to begin with. He appear to understand, although for rest of
day, he seem sad.
To try and cheer him, I tell him I have idea who I would
make new kruum. He shook his head when I say Alakath could be new one.
He say that kruum need be canine and Feral. If not him, then may have to
make arrangement with Bruumweild. I cannot do that. They horrible, cruel
people. They will not help.
He say it the only way if it isn’t him. I ask why? He say
the kruumii leticii will not work if otherwise. I believe there must be
a way. Tomorrow, Gladia say she go to library, place full of books. I will go
with her. Maybe somehow there is a book that can help me find way. If not
Alakath, then it must be someone who will at least live long enough for the kruumii
leticii to take place.
Of course, the kruumii leticii may not work anyway.
It requires one of the parents to already be kruum or kraam. In
this case, neither of us would be. Maybe there’s something that has to be
different in this case. Another ritual, perhaps. I will look into this.
Today, Gladia just poured over her maps and books. She still
seems unsure if she want to go to that place. I asked her what is there. She
says an ancient artifact that her brother believed would bring them much
wealth. I think she may not pursue it now that she has lost her brother.
I spent much time helping Johan with chores today. He didn’t
spend much time helping me learn this writing. He seemed distracted by
something. I hope it isn’t what I said about rebuilding the clan.
Alakath, like yesterday, was gone all day. Supposedly, he is
“squiring” some girl. I ask Johan what this mean, but I still don’t understand.
He say a squire like chelata, only the squire is willing and people view
it as being honorable. Squires apparently help their “sire” with many thing,
including fighting and exploring.
Alakath still isn’t back yet, but I am getting too tired to
stay awake. I hope that dream doesn’t happen again. If so, maybe Alakath will
be here.
